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I'm writing a blog now 'cause Johnmark told me to.

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Life's really weird. Lotsa stuff and stuff. I wasn't expecting for life to freeze while I was gone and then return to normal when i get back... hmmm... I'm probably never going back...
well, I'm not going back the same.. and my stuff being the same
okay I'm confused.. I'll break it down

1) I'm at college
2) left adelaide and perth to be here
3) time is not geographically influenced - life is going on here AND in adelaide and perth (bummer)
4) If I go back - things wouldn't be the same - I know that!!!
5) I didn't really think about the 'inbetweeny' changes that go on while I'm here and other people are there


But life has gone on in all of the worlds that us cadets have left behind. and life has just happened on some of the families like a bucket of bricks.

It's hard being surrounded by it but not really a part of it. just a bit detached, you know!

all the assignments and stuff are still around like an itchy fungus. the cadets are still great and awesome and we're getting even closer (scary!). the staff are brill. God's still hard at work pointing out stacks and stacks of stuff that I need to give to Him. It's very icky biniss (like the fungus), but I know it's for good and it's just part of drawing nearer to Him.

Sometimes I get a little scared though when I think 'ewww! this stuff is annoying and crap. I think I was better off 2 years ago!'



I'll get over it.

and got on with it

bless you all
-rach

Grood thoughts, Rhonda

and a grouse name for yer Guinea pig.

*grood means great and good at the same time*
*I don't know what 'grouse' means - I'm not a natural Melbournian - I think it means grood*

Re; the comment on the last bloggio...
I'm starting to feel a strange mix of fed-up-ed-ness and passionate zeal when I think about mission and social justice and 'how do we do this the right way?' ... ness

I don't think we should ignore God
I don't think we should ignore the need to be active in mission
Sure, mission is every day
But that's not an excuse to sit on a buttios (I suggest yer own) and do nothing
Peace is of the LORD
So is rest...
But He was a bit specific on how that was one day a week

How do I do mission at Training College?
How on earth will I do it when I leave?

Same flippin' smart-butt answer every time

"listen to God... (double check you heard right)... and do what He says"

Dang... dang and blast

My simplicity is so trite that I want to punch myself in the headios

God bless you all... and me too.

The Rachael Collins

things, things and stuff

missio dei...
am struggling with that. Am planning to chat with my lecturer next week. he was making jokes that I can't handle the concept 'cause I'm used to 'missio Collinsio'... butt-head

he's so right.

he's so bald.

and that was a cheap shot

am learning all about the cheap shots at College

in all honesty though, the 'missio dei' thingo (my understanding is that it's the concept of all mission being planned, instructed, enabled and powered by God).... *I will understand this better after chatting with baldy, I'm sure* is grouse, it's perfect, it's theologically correct, it's beautiful, it's flowers and hugs and bunnies...

and I have an issue with this... and a full head of lush, shiny hair.

why?

naturally pre-disposed to beauty, I reckon... And why the issuio with the missio?

me... it's all about me. I don't care about other people.
If mission is from God,
by God,
all about God and
Goddy-God-God-God
...
where the crap does RACHAEL FREAKIN COLLINS fit in?!?!?!?!?!?

(please don't take this too seriously - I'm processing)

I'm going to go brush my hair.

Good night!

God bless you all with lush, lush, shiny hair.

(Can you die from an overdose of cheap shots?)

balance?

now i know some may be violently against the idea of 'balance' in life due to the following;
'Jesus wasn't balanced!'
'The Bible never told me to be balanced'
'Balance is for sissies who don't listen to the LORD'
'If you're not constantly on the edge of a nervous breakdown - you're not a real Christian'

...
okay, so the last one's a bit extreme, but i hope you know where I'm coming from.
It seems as though the whole concept of balance is either repulisve or idolised.
I'm just asking for a break.
Maybe I've got access to freedom and peace that I'm just not taking... maybe I'm making MYSELF feel guilty.
maybe I need to go to bed...no, that's not it - I had a great sleep last night and it's only just noon.
Why is there a nagging feeling that I'm not up to scratch? Why am i terrified that I'll be 'found out'? Found out for what?
Is there a beautiful place of passionately driven service and rest in the Lord? I know my smart-arse answer is always 'aw crap... LISTEN to God and DO what He says - when will this register?'
seriously
holiness, the legitimacy of the Bible, community, heedless millions, loving God, Grace, peace, judgement, individuality, sin, disobedience, rebellion, love, OTHERS, work, stress, freedom

I know I always have the same argument, if you know me - you're probably sick of it. I still don't get it though... all of it.
any of it.
Please don't comment and give me the answers.
I don't really want them, to be honest.

I'll agree with you, and then with someone else, and then some book and end up a complete hypocrite.

I'm going to go eat lunch

God bless you all.